In this moment now, capture it,
remember it. You pull me in and I'm a little more brave, you take my hand and
drag me headfirst, fearless.
Last night in Colorado ♥
Mallory / Taylor Swift
Music and Mallory have always seemed intertwined, so perhaps
it was fitting that as we pulled into the parking lot at the airport this
morning, this song and these particular lyrics were playing…
We are young
So let’s set the world on fire
We can burn brighter than the sun
Fun
Fitting indeed that the next chapter of what has already
been an amazing life would be in New Mexico, “The Land of Enchantment”, whose
state symbol is the Zia, symbolic to some of the original pueblo people as the
sun.
Mallory’s last blog post (if that’s what you do on Tumblr)
started with this quote
“The wild passion of letting yourself be transported by wind, by burning heat and by cold space… The pleasure of being anonymous, of being quiet for a long time, of existing in no place at all… The pleasure of leaving, of being far away, of being missing… The subtle pleasures of erasing the presence of your body, your words and your shadow, of counting for nothing, of hiding yourself, of becoming so light that you fly away…” Michel Sierres
I encourage you to read the whole thing (post titled “Now
Boarding”) – and a lot of here other thoughts as well at
In essence though, Mallory writes about the excitement she
finds in airports, as much as anything because of the anticipation they hold –
the promise of things to come. Fitting
too then that the quote she has chosen to reflect herself on Tumblr is from
Henry David Thoreau;
We must learn to reawaken and keep ourselves awake, not by mechanical aids, but by an infinite expectation of the dawn
Today is hard. I
suppose I always knew it would be. It
was not something I was dreading and this past week – the culmination of a
years of “lasts” has almost seemed anticlimactic. Indeed, that Mallory is so ready for this is
certainly helping a lot. But bittersweet
is just that.
Today is hard!
In the movie Saving Private Ryan, an elderly Ryan talking at
the headstone of the leader of a group of soldiers who sacrificed his life as a young soldier getting Ryan out of the battlefield,
I
tried to live my life the best that I could. I hope that was enough. I hope
that, at least in your eyes, I've earned what all of you have done for me.
This and then the question he asks his wife,
Tell
me I have led a good life. … Tell me I'm a good man.
have always been to me a question I always want to feel I am
on the right side of – in effect – have I made a positive difference – did I do
more good than harm…
Today we pass a milestone where in part I find out. Mallory will always be my little girl, and I
will always be her papa, but the formative days are largely done. So largely I am find peace in the fact that Mallory
will shine, continue to shine really. Whatever
small or large part I have had her doing that and becoming the beautiful young
woman she is brings comfort to my soul.
As I said in a short speech I made at her Sweet 16 celebration not all
that long ago when reflecting on the notion that our children are mirrors,
reflecting the best and worst of our character, that with Mallory, sometimes I
fear as a parent I may get too much credit and my many failings are obscured.
It Goes by in a Flash
It Goes by in a Flash
I am indeed, a fortunate father.
